I've decided to reflect while Snakes and Arrows is transferring from CD to 'lossless' Atrac. Things seem to be going alright. I find myself kind of trepidatious around my housemates, wary and afraid to impose. I'm starting to wonder if they know I'm trans, and if not when/how I should tell them. The job is probably better than I expected. Half of it is the same shit I've been doing for almost two years, the other half is not more demanding just different. Better than I expected, better than White Castle. I miss having a DVD player. I can't believe how my grades turned out, completely beyond all expectations, even logic, perhaps. And now I'm about to listen to the first new Rush album in five years. Over an hour of new Rush, songs I've never heard before. It'll probably be another five years before I find myself in the same situation again, and it's possible I'll be killed in that time. I've eaten. I'm as relaxed as I'm going to be. It's about halfway through the seventh song, so I've got more time. Trans stuff is going well still, but I find I'm getting annoyed by things more. I hate my eyebrows, I might have to get them waxed. I hate, hate that my ejaculate seems to be thickening- a sign of resistance to the estrogen? Other than that it's going as well as it's been. My breasts are growing, etc. Just little things, pissing me off. I haven't done a movie journal in a while; maybe after I finish Friday the 13th part 3-D and Perfect Strangers. Or Inside Man. Or maybe I'll be too self-conscious to watch a movie in my room again and too nervous to be around my flatmates that I'll do neither. Oh well. Still going, about three more left. I really hope this is a good album. I've come to love Vapor Trails. My expectations are high but I know that its true quality won't be revealed until about the 5th or 6th listen... at least. I'll probably listen to it a few times at work tomorrow, can't imagine I won't. Maybe throw a Deadpit in the mix. It's not finished... it's finished!

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